You stumble through your days, got your head hung low. Your skies a shade of grey. Like a zombie in a maze, you’re asleep inside. But you can’t shake away. ‘Cause you’re just a dead man walking, thinking that’s your only option. But you can flip the switch and brighten up your darkest day. Sun is up and the color’s blinding. Take the world and redefine it. Leave behind your narrow mind. You’ll never be the same.
When the world becomes a fantasy and you’re more than you could ever be, ’cause you’re dreaming with your eyes wide open. And you know you can’t go back again to the world that you were living in. ‘Cause you’re dreaming with your eyes wide open. So come alive!
-Come Alive – “The Greatest Showman”
When I first heard these lyrics, I didn’t really think much of it. Mostly because it was in a movie and I was very distracted by the fascinating story in The Greatest Showman. Insert shameless plug here for said movie.
Now that the soundtrack is playing constantly on my phone, in my car, and currently on YouTube as I write this, the lyrics above helped me to reflect on the past year. I don’t know about you, but I really love the fresh feeling of a new year. Day 1 of 365 speaks volumes to my inspiration and motivation. As many people know, I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for awhile now. Stumbling through my days like a zombie sounds ominously familiar. But now it’s been about a year and a half since the “switch”, and even though there are still things that get me down, my world has been redefined. I’ve left behind my narrow mind. And I hope to never be the same as the zombie I once was. I feel I have come alive. And while I’m so thankful for the ways I’ve come alive in my life, I can’t help but think that there was more of a reason for it, more than just me realizing that it has happened. I hope it is obvious in what ways I can share my story and share the hope I have found in my journey.